She was asked a question, she answered it....
She DID NOT lie, she answered how SHE felt.....
In my book she is a winner, not because of what she believes in, but for standing on HER moral ground, speaking what SHE believes, and sticking to it --- at the cost of the crown....
And the crown should go to..... Miss California!!!
And the crowd goes crazy.....
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Comfort Level....
I often wonder why I can't be comfortable in my own skin.....
I mean, I like who I am on the inside.....
But, why is it my perception of the outside can be so off????
I feel really uncomfortable giving actual numbers, but, I'm going to do so just to confirm how crazy I am...
In high school I was small, probably around the 110 range. Once I entered the work place my weight slowly crept up to about 120/125, but it was fairly easy to maintain that weight. At one point in my mid twenties, and in a very unhappy relationship, my weight reached 160. I went on Nutri Systems and quickly took it off. I then maintained 120 until after my second child. After Emma was born I ate because I was so overwhelmed with two kids 18 months apart. For about five years I probably wieghed about 140. Then I started running and the weight came off. Again, It became easy to maintain a weight somewhere in the 120/125 range. Since February, when my life flipped a bit around with the death of my friend and the stress of our business, my weight has dropped to the 114 range....
Here is the point to all this.... I still view my body as if I weigh so much more then I do. I'm wearing a size that I've always said "Of course that's cute, anything that size is cute"... and yet I can't really "SEE" myself at this weight/size. My minds eye still see's whatever the heck it sees... It's crazy - I know. I could never be anorexic because I love to eat too much, but I do see how they can get such a warped sense of self image. I'm sure if I lost another five pounds, I'd still see myself the same way....
I mean, I like who I am on the inside.....
But, why is it my perception of the outside can be so off????
I feel really uncomfortable giving actual numbers, but, I'm going to do so just to confirm how crazy I am...
In high school I was small, probably around the 110 range. Once I entered the work place my weight slowly crept up to about 120/125, but it was fairly easy to maintain that weight. At one point in my mid twenties, and in a very unhappy relationship, my weight reached 160. I went on Nutri Systems and quickly took it off. I then maintained 120 until after my second child. After Emma was born I ate because I was so overwhelmed with two kids 18 months apart. For about five years I probably wieghed about 140. Then I started running and the weight came off. Again, It became easy to maintain a weight somewhere in the 120/125 range. Since February, when my life flipped a bit around with the death of my friend and the stress of our business, my weight has dropped to the 114 range....
Here is the point to all this.... I still view my body as if I weigh so much more then I do. I'm wearing a size that I've always said "Of course that's cute, anything that size is cute"... and yet I can't really "SEE" myself at this weight/size. My minds eye still see's whatever the heck it sees... It's crazy - I know. I could never be anorexic because I love to eat too much, but I do see how they can get such a warped sense of self image. I'm sure if I lost another five pounds, I'd still see myself the same way....
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