Dear God....

Cancer sucks....

Quiet frankly, I'm tired of praying for miracles.... which then often turns into prayers of peace and comfort....

I'm tired of holding my breath when a caringbridge update comes through, hoping the 12 year old it talks about has counts that allows him to have chemo. Or finding out that the friend who complained for three years to her doctor about severe back pain had pancreatic cancer, and six months after the diagnosis was gone.

I'm fearful for my neighbor who just found out she has cancer. The same kind that took her step father within four months of being diagnosed.

You are our creator - you hold all things in your hands - you can eradicate this - WHY DON"T YOU??!!

Yes, along with the painful, I have rejoiced with the healed. I praise you Lord for healing my mother who has for the last 13 years been cancer free. I praise you for little Faith, who at 3 fought the good fight and won. But I miss my best friend who at 33 was taken from me.

Please, please, please, I beg you, Lord, allow us to find a cure... soon.... so very soon....