I stumbled onto a new site recently, My Cinderella Story. I feel a bit of a kindred spirit with her posts....
What really made me laugh was this post and since I can't figure out how to post a youtube video, you'll have to link to it...
This made me laugh so hard, and honestly, has some truth to the way I wish I could sometimes pray!!!!
Enjoy!!
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Oh You Of Little Faith....
I'm convinced that is what Jesus is thinking of me at this very moment...
In the midst of a storm, Peter stepped out of his boat, in faith, to walk toward Jesus - on top of water - with waves and wind all around him... Peter was successful in his walk until he took his eyes off of Jesus. Suddenly Peter became very aware of the high waves and strong wind, and he pushed aside Jesus' power to sustain him and succumbed to his own inadequacies to try and keep himself afloat. Fear took over and he began to sink.
I have a little mantra when times get tough - don't be Peter, keep your eyes on Jesus, don't be Peter, keep your eyes on the Lord, don't be Peter, the waves wont get me, don't be Peter, keep your eyes on Jesus.... Over and over it is repeated.... but right now I feel like the waves are way too high overhead and I'm straining to not be like Peter, to keep my focus forward, but the waves and the wind are raging and fear is taking over...
I believe the bible is God breathed, inspired by the Lord God Almighty and that every word is true. I don't claim to understand it all, but by faith I believe it all. The bible holds many promises for my life. God promises to sustain me "Even to your old age and gray hairs I am he, I am he who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you." Isaiah 46:4. He promises to feed me, just as he does the birds (Mt 6:26), he promises to clothe me, just as he does the grass of the fields (Mt 6:30), His promises go on and on. And thus far he has upheld what he promises, we are fed, we are clothed, and I am holding on in faith (which I believe I am only able to do because of His power).
However, I am disappointed that no where in scripture does He promise to pay my mortgage, to ensure I can pay my health insurance, or that He will pave an easy road to pay for utilities and the kid's constant need of money for something required at school or sports. I realize that everything I have does not belong to me, its just on loan from the Lord. I admit I'm still struggling with accepting this - He gives, He can take away - I need to trust that His plans for me are way better then I could ever imagine "For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope" Jer 29:11, but right now this plan does not feel too good. Or make any sense.
So back to Peter. He began to sink and he cried out, "Lord save me!" The bible tells us IMMEDIATELY Jesus reached out to him. Jesus didn't just stand there and let him sink a little more into the cold unfriendly water to learn a lesson, He didn't let him sink under a few times to really get the point, He didn't reach out his hand only to quickly pull it back and then thrust if forward again in some kind of cat and mouse game that had Jesus in stitches and Peter a bit frustrated. No, Peter called out for help and Jesus immediately reached for him.
I know that every time I call out to him, Jesus extends his hand to me - immediately. I know that He see's my struggles, I know that He knows my pain and my fears. I know He hears my prayers. Now, more then ever, I need to trust in what I know. Because I know that just as Jesus extended his hand out to Peter and exclaimed "You of little faith, why did you doubt?", He is wondering the same of me....
In the midst of a storm, Peter stepped out of his boat, in faith, to walk toward Jesus - on top of water - with waves and wind all around him... Peter was successful in his walk until he took his eyes off of Jesus. Suddenly Peter became very aware of the high waves and strong wind, and he pushed aside Jesus' power to sustain him and succumbed to his own inadequacies to try and keep himself afloat. Fear took over and he began to sink.
I have a little mantra when times get tough - don't be Peter, keep your eyes on Jesus, don't be Peter, keep your eyes on the Lord, don't be Peter, the waves wont get me, don't be Peter, keep your eyes on Jesus.... Over and over it is repeated.... but right now I feel like the waves are way too high overhead and I'm straining to not be like Peter, to keep my focus forward, but the waves and the wind are raging and fear is taking over...
I believe the bible is God breathed, inspired by the Lord God Almighty and that every word is true. I don't claim to understand it all, but by faith I believe it all. The bible holds many promises for my life. God promises to sustain me "Even to your old age and gray hairs I am he, I am he who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you." Isaiah 46:4. He promises to feed me, just as he does the birds (Mt 6:26), he promises to clothe me, just as he does the grass of the fields (Mt 6:30), His promises go on and on. And thus far he has upheld what he promises, we are fed, we are clothed, and I am holding on in faith (which I believe I am only able to do because of His power).
However, I am disappointed that no where in scripture does He promise to pay my mortgage, to ensure I can pay my health insurance, or that He will pave an easy road to pay for utilities and the kid's constant need of money for something required at school or sports. I realize that everything I have does not belong to me, its just on loan from the Lord. I admit I'm still struggling with accepting this - He gives, He can take away - I need to trust that His plans for me are way better then I could ever imagine "For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope" Jer 29:11, but right now this plan does not feel too good. Or make any sense.
So back to Peter. He began to sink and he cried out, "Lord save me!" The bible tells us IMMEDIATELY Jesus reached out to him. Jesus didn't just stand there and let him sink a little more into the cold unfriendly water to learn a lesson, He didn't let him sink under a few times to really get the point, He didn't reach out his hand only to quickly pull it back and then thrust if forward again in some kind of cat and mouse game that had Jesus in stitches and Peter a bit frustrated. No, Peter called out for help and Jesus immediately reached for him.
I know that every time I call out to him, Jesus extends his hand to me - immediately. I know that He see's my struggles, I know that He knows my pain and my fears. I know He hears my prayers. Now, more then ever, I need to trust in what I know. Because I know that just as Jesus extended his hand out to Peter and exclaimed "You of little faith, why did you doubt?", He is wondering the same of me....
Friday, May 28, 2010
God Spoke To Me Today....
Through the mouth of a four year old...
My house has always been my safe place. I love that we received the keys to our new home the day before our wedding. I love that it is the only home my children have known thus far. I love our neighbors and how we've all been fortunate enough to start our families together and strive to raise them with the same morals and values. I love that a few years back we took our living room back from the kids and it has turned into a wonderful "grown up" room instead of the kids play area. I love that in between these walls we have loved, laughed, argued, nurtured, entertained - lived life - over the past 13 years.
I love my home....
Until recently....
I find when I'm inside these walls I become impatient, fearful, angry, resentful. I hear water running and think about a water bill. I hear the heat come on in the early mornings and think about an electric bill. I'm so fearful of losing our home, and yet I can't rest easy inside of it right now. I find it so ironic that I'm so afraid of losing it, yet it's the last thing I want to take care of - I kind of shut down when I'm here.
I wake every morning asking God to give me wisdom regarding our situation and to give me peace and acceptance regarding our circumstances. I know God is in control, and I am waiting for His deliverance (although not very patiently as of late). I'm trying, really hard, to become ok with letting my house go if it comes down to that - but so far I haven't got there. I so desire to hear God's voice... clearly.... knowing without a doubt it was him... telling me it's all going to be ok.
As I was leaving a friend today, her four year old son was yelling his good byes across the parking lot to me. At the last moment, he turned one last time and shouted "Oh, and enjoy your home"......
God spoke to me today through that little boy's sweet voice....
My house has always been my safe place. I love that we received the keys to our new home the day before our wedding. I love that it is the only home my children have known thus far. I love our neighbors and how we've all been fortunate enough to start our families together and strive to raise them with the same morals and values. I love that a few years back we took our living room back from the kids and it has turned into a wonderful "grown up" room instead of the kids play area. I love that in between these walls we have loved, laughed, argued, nurtured, entertained - lived life - over the past 13 years.
I love my home....
Until recently....
I find when I'm inside these walls I become impatient, fearful, angry, resentful. I hear water running and think about a water bill. I hear the heat come on in the early mornings and think about an electric bill. I'm so fearful of losing our home, and yet I can't rest easy inside of it right now. I find it so ironic that I'm so afraid of losing it, yet it's the last thing I want to take care of - I kind of shut down when I'm here.
I wake every morning asking God to give me wisdom regarding our situation and to give me peace and acceptance regarding our circumstances. I know God is in control, and I am waiting for His deliverance (although not very patiently as of late). I'm trying, really hard, to become ok with letting my house go if it comes down to that - but so far I haven't got there. I so desire to hear God's voice... clearly.... knowing without a doubt it was him... telling me it's all going to be ok.
As I was leaving a friend today, her four year old son was yelling his good byes across the parking lot to me. At the last moment, he turned one last time and shouted "Oh, and enjoy your home"......
God spoke to me today through that little boy's sweet voice....
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
A Few Pet Peeves....
In random order....
Open mouth chewers - I don't want to hear you eat or see your food while you do...
Not returning your shopping cart - come on people, most of the time the return stall is a few small steps away. This drives me COMPLETELY bonkers...
People who decide they don't want an item and leave it some random place in the store - Really?!? You just really can't go back to the area and return it to its proper place?!? At the very least, hold on to it and tell the checker you changed your mind...
Not replacing an empty toilet paper roll - so not nice, and lazy to boot...
More to come....
Open mouth chewers - I don't want to hear you eat or see your food while you do...
Not returning your shopping cart - come on people, most of the time the return stall is a few small steps away. This drives me COMPLETELY bonkers...
People who decide they don't want an item and leave it some random place in the store - Really?!? You just really can't go back to the area and return it to its proper place?!? At the very least, hold on to it and tell the checker you changed your mind...
Not replacing an empty toilet paper roll - so not nice, and lazy to boot...
More to come....
Saturday, May 1, 2010
If You Don't Have Anything Nice To Say......
Don't say it at all.....
That's what we teach our kids, right? I've been pretty quiet of late -- well --because -- all the topics in which I desire to write about aren't -- yes, you guessed it -- nice....
And actually, there's really only one topic I desire to spew about, and that would be, yes, the ex partner - David Tieman from Tieman's Fusion Coffee....
Here's my deal: In good faith we formed a partnership. In good faith we lent him money to pay his personal bills. In good faith we extended WAY too much money into the company. In good faith we agreed to a buy out. And here we sit, eight months later, with not even a cent nor a peep from him, his law firm, or anyone else associated with him.
The irony of it all is -- we have not been part of this company for the past 11 months, yet we are the only one paying the debt for it. In good faith we believed, since he was so adamant about buying the company, that he would honor his agreement. But men with NO honor don't care about holding up their agreements.
We are in such a financial straight jacket at the moment. Actually, more like a financial guillotine, and we're frantically trying to prevent someone from pulling the lever that ends it all. It's hard not to funnel the focus, and so much anger, on the one with whom we feel caused all of this. Yes, we went WAY too far out on a limb, we should have never extended ourselves the way we did - we acknowledge so and take responsibility for our part of where we find ourselves right now, but we did it all... In good faith...
That's what we teach our kids, right? I've been pretty quiet of late -- well --because -- all the topics in which I desire to write about aren't -- yes, you guessed it -- nice....
And actually, there's really only one topic I desire to spew about, and that would be, yes, the ex partner - David Tieman from Tieman's Fusion Coffee....
Here's my deal: In good faith we formed a partnership. In good faith we lent him money to pay his personal bills. In good faith we extended WAY too much money into the company. In good faith we agreed to a buy out. And here we sit, eight months later, with not even a cent nor a peep from him, his law firm, or anyone else associated with him.
The irony of it all is -- we have not been part of this company for the past 11 months, yet we are the only one paying the debt for it. In good faith we believed, since he was so adamant about buying the company, that he would honor his agreement. But men with NO honor don't care about holding up their agreements.
We are in such a financial straight jacket at the moment. Actually, more like a financial guillotine, and we're frantically trying to prevent someone from pulling the lever that ends it all. It's hard not to funnel the focus, and so much anger, on the one with whom we feel caused all of this. Yes, we went WAY too far out on a limb, we should have never extended ourselves the way we did - we acknowledge so and take responsibility for our part of where we find ourselves right now, but we did it all... In good faith...
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
12 Years Ago....
This child came into our lives....
He's so darn smart, one of the funniest people I know, so compassionate and deeply emotional
but....
the future scares me with this one.....
Thank goodness it was only crazy hair day!
This is his creativity with rings
Born to be bad.... or so he thinksHappy Birthday Little Man - You make us so very proud!!
Sunday, March 7, 2010
So....
Will you be watching the Oscars tonight?
Although one would think I would be into that, I'm not....
I'll just cruise the internet tomorrow and watch a few of the celebrity news shows to see who wore what and to hear if there were any show stopping moments that happened.
Instead, I'll be finishing my bible study that I need done for tomorrow....
Although one would think I would be into that, I'm not....
I'll just cruise the internet tomorrow and watch a few of the celebrity news shows to see who wore what and to hear if there were any show stopping moments that happened.
Instead, I'll be finishing my bible study that I need done for tomorrow....
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